heart-opening Quaker meeting

(January 10, 2016) It is First Day, Sunday, Quaker meeting. Today is his first visit to my holy place, my sacred ground. Only a couple of people are in the meeting room when we arrive and there is something so vulnerable and intimate about that. I’ve learned by now that when I bring friends here … Continue reading heart-opening Quaker meeting

new year new me

January 1, 2016 In a wood-floor room with huge windows that look upon the meandering river below, the dancers make a circle. Everybody has a partner and we will progress around the circle, switching partners; no eye will be unlooked upon. I have been coming to these dances long enough that I finally feel comfortable, … Continue reading new year new me

joy, and undoing the knowing

(12-28-15) My friend unwraps Reese’s bells with the greatest deliberation and sets them before himself on the counter. One, two, three, four. He stuffs them all into his mouth at once because they taste better that way. Tears roll down my cheeks, my abs ache, I can’t breathe. I laugh every time just remembering it. … Continue reading joy, and undoing the knowing

Christmas at the Abbey of Gethsemani, 12-22 & 12-23

I have begun a quest to write for 90 days in a row (and if I miss a day, make it up the next). It's similar to the 12-Step "90 in 90 days" motto (90 meetings in 90 days). It's been enjoyable and rewarding even just for myself, but sometimes I want to share what … Continue reading Christmas at the Abbey of Gethsemani, 12-22 & 12-23

reasonable expectations = not being crazy (or driving yourself mad)

My "editor in chief," as I like to call him (reader of essays, emails, and occasionally even texts, for when I'm trying particularly hard to sound like a polite and sane person) took issue with the second-to-last line of the previous (okay, and only) post. To save you some time, I'll re-quote it: "I can never live … Continue reading reasonable expectations = not being crazy (or driving yourself mad)